From Barren To The Mother Of Many

Read Isaiah 54

As a woman, I believe not being able to hold, nurture and manifest a seed is especially frustrating. Thinking, planning and putting hard work into a seed and not getting the opportunity to see it grow is humiliating. The feeling of incompetence, inadequacy, and not being good enough blares over the vivid dreams, thoughts and constant envisionment of producing the formed result. A successful production is validation of having good seed, obedience, functioning equipment, and being a good steward and mother. It authenticates a woman. I was made for this! To be barren is shaming. It brings about so much self-doubt…and it’s public. But God says “REJOICE!” How?…when everyone knows I’ve never been big with the fullness of pregnancy EVER. All the giving, sacrificing, preparing, and desperate planting of seed…ANY SEED with any slight resemblance of good because if I just flood this womb with seed, something’s got to take, right? Please SOMETHING grow…but no, there’s nothing to show. Not even a split in the seed. My womb is left with the scatter of multiple rotting, rancid, dead seeds. He says “BARREN”, as if my body rejects production, never to reach the work, pain, then valiant last force of birthing made to engrave the experience into our mind. This body is supposed to produce, but the production is a whole lot of work for nothing. Nobody sees how wonderfully I could nurture, hold, manage and love. No one sees a great cultivator in a fruitless garden. They just see BARREN and who wants barren. Barren is rejected and lonely, but God says “REJOICE”, “SHOUT”, “SING”, because the empty and deserted one has more “…sons than the married woman.” A “son” is a fruit with more seeds, which equates to continuous fruit, my legacy. Only God would pull fruits with many out of a barren place. God says “BRING IT” too, “DO NOT SPARE”. You don’t spare and He won’t spare. There are countless instances demonstrating the manifestation of OVERFLOW out of barren wombs. He produces OVERFLOW out of empty pots; OVERFLOW out of empty baskets; OVERFLOW out of an empty sea; and OVERFLOW out of an empty “Deep”. You provide the vessel and He’ll produce the overflow. So, prepare to receive. Make room and be ready for the overflow. Prepare to hold all of it because you will be busting. Out of the barren ruins, people will come and stay, bringing life to the desolate, as the ceaseless seeds spread and produce fruit across NATIONS. When God speaks “…and people will inhabit ruined cities”, we must recall how God sees us to get understanding. We must come outside of the narrow, natural thinking of these earthly vessels and read “people” the way God sees people. God sees the bodily vessel for the purpose of being used to cultivate the Earth. He sees “people” as spirits that are unseen and powerfully working and having dominion over the ever renewing, inexhaustible supply of unseen things. “Cities” are made first in the unseen through our creative thoughts, ideas and imagination, and wait for the submissive agreement of the natural body to cooperate and build what the spirit and mind have planned and ordered to manifest to the senses into the seen, natural Earth using the visible resources of this natural world. Cities become “ruined” through the habit of consistent abuse and neglect. How long will you allow the suppression, neglect and undermine your gift? It is from God, and any gift from Him is extraordinary. How long will you abuse your body, having it serve under everything other than what it is supposed to be used for which is to fulfill His purpose? I’ve allowed squatters to infiltrate my thoughts and mind leaving, garbage and broken, useless clutter into my cities. We are spirit and made to be fruitful and replenish wherever we go. Spirit moves when God speaks. Spirit produces. “People” were given “…fruitful, replenish, multiply and subdue…” That’s what is supposed to be inhabiting this body and mind. DO NOT FEAR, you will be built back. The mind, cluttered and dust clouded, will be cleared and filled with production. DO NOT FEAR! Love, create, dream, imagine…lay it ALL out. No more shame, disgrace, hurt, constant rejection and minimizing. Everything this world did to you will be wiped clean without a trace. God will be your husband and be all that a husband is supposed to be…provider, seeder, organizer, lover, and leader. The One who made you and knows your innermost parts; how you function; why you do things the way you do; what moves you and what you were made for, seeks your intimacy. Your Maker who put everything in its place to create who you are wants to connect to become one. The God of many, who has so much, proposes to make what’s His, yours. Not just His anymore but Ours through marriage. He has saved me and lifted me from my prison. God of ALL the earth is MY husband. I have neglected my spirit. It grieves, forgotten and starved. Then in case I didn’t know He was talking to me, He tells me what I seek and desire when I feel rejected…and it hurt and angered Him. He left me and let me stay in my sick, hurt and barren place trying to take care of me and do whatever I felt with no regard to my God, my husband, but He says “…just for a little moment.” He loves me so much that He couldn’t stay away for long. As much as I did with no regard to Him, He still couldn’t leave me, the selfish, blind, hypocrite for long. With everlasting love and mercy, He gathers up all my pieces that I recklessly threw about the place and put me back together as only He knows how each piece fits, undeservedly mending me back to a more formidable being. Then to add even more demonstration of His love, like that wasn’t enough, God shows out and “swears” not to ever be angry with me again or even criticize or punish me for my offense as if it never even happened. He clears the way so I could see using His unwavering mercy…forever. He PROMISES His peace stays on me. God’s peace means NO FEAR of anything, just peace. No worry about sickness, death, kids, people, money, car problems, bills, provision, age, job, health, body… just PEACE. I am gifted with God’s PEACE because He has pity on me and has heard my cries. Again, He calls me out and tells me about being weak on my own, allowing myself to be tossed about like a rag doll by every storm brought upon me. Constantly being oppressed and afflicted to never be comforted. Just deal.

“My stones”, the Word which are the building blocks of my renewed life, “will be stretched out among antimony” to polish, sharpen and strengthen words to make them attractive as they spread. As far as it will stretch, each piece of influence and Word will not be established alone. As He is my husband and we are as one, He is there supporting, strengthening and polishing every pursuit. The further the reach, the more polishing, strengthening and attraction will be added. Wherever the decision to build, the foundation will be laid ahead of time in strength. It’s a foundation laid of a rare originality that is individual to you, with the strength, added wisdom, peace and protection from God. The “battlements” or vision is regarded as having the obvious attributes of being the most precious of all, being set on high beaming with light, will have a basis of defense as well as provide for strategic offensive movement. All of it built through Him. All “gates” or passages in or ahead gives off light even in darkness. Knowledge and wisdom is free-flowing. Paths are never without light, therefore never having a need to draw from the world’s manufactured, depleting and exhaustible light. God is evident in all as all “borders” and surroundings are gleaming with all His glory. SHINE, SHINE, SHINE!!!! All seed-bearing fruit produced will have the instruction of God backing them up. As the seed is from God, the peace that will be upon all who receive it will be GREAT! As the fruit spreads about to many “nations”, the Peace wielding seed that they bare will grow and spread God’s Peace wherever it is planted.

Every step will be secure and well lit, boldly and confidently proceeding forward wherever I may go as I receive. I know that I am in right standing and far from anybody or anything holding me down, deterring me or extorting any of the inheritance that has been designated to me since before time. Any bit of fear will be far from my presence. They’ll try, but will immediately fall on command. God is ever ready and stayed alongside with the fire ever burning hot and the weapon sharpened and prepared to lay waste to whoever comes in opposition. No judgement, no lie, no weapon shall survive. Only truth, light, wisdom and knowledge shall abound as it is all from God.

Amen!!